when your a boy, i quess you never really see how truly mean girls can be. but when your a girl, you get the full veiwing. i used to hang out with a group of girls who i considered my best friends. i thought they were absolutly great! but then after a series of unfortunate events, i realised they are probably the worst. while friends with them i dont know how much trouble i got into and how much trust i lost from my parents. and that is the worst feeling, knowing that your parents cant trust you. and now after all this has happened my 'closest' friend out of them all. doesnt care. then i look back on all the times ive told her something. she never showed an inch of compassion for my problems. and then she would never tell me hers. she'd just go around sulking all day. it was annoying. and there was nothing i could do because she would never tell me why.
but thank god, i have friends like hayley. she has always been there for me when im upset and shes always made me feel better. ive always thought of her as my best friend. and never doubted it. she tells me whats wrong with her when shes upset and i try my best to comfort her. i have so much fun with her, and i can easily be myself with her.she sticks up for me. not one of my other friends did. theyd just say to deal with it myself. and at the time i thought they were helping me by making me do it myself. to toughen me up. but no. it was because they didnt care. and this just makes me so mad. they think their better than everyone else. whereas hayley is fine with who she is. and so am i. they can keep going on with all the crap they do, and one day suffer the consiquences.
ive never had luck with friends. they either secretly want to ditch me, bitch about me behind my back, use me or they really just dont care about me. well, im threw with people not caring. I care. i want to be able to trust my friend with everything.and so far hayley is the only one i can.
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